Just Believe !!

“Sometimes your biggest battle is to believe in yourself.”

I feared rejection until I learned to have faith in myself.
I feared pain until I learned that it’s necessary for growth.
I feared the truth until I saw the ugliness in lies.
I feared life until I experienced its beauty.
I feared death until I realized that it’s not an end, but a beginning.
I feared my destiny, until I realized that I had the power to change my life.
I feared hate until I saw that it was nothing more than ignorance.
I feared love until it touched my heart, making the darkness fade into endless sunny days
I feared ridicule until I learned how to laugh at myself.
I feared growing old until I realized that I gained wisdom every day.
I feared the future until I realized that life just kept getting better.
I feared the past until I realized that it could no longer hurt me.
I feared the dark until I saw the beauty of the starlight.
I feared the light until I learned that the truth would give me strength.
I feared change, until I saw that even the most beautiful butterfly had to undergo
a metamorphosis before it could fly.

Just learn to believe in yourself.

holding on

You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can’t see it now

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You’re just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you’re down to your last breath
And you don’t know it yet

But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there’s a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won’t be much longer
You’ll find love, you’ll find peace
And the you you’re meant to be
I know right now that’s not the way you feel
But one day you will

LIFE

Life can bring you many things
Some are sad and some are great
Others drive you mad
Then there are those who bring
A smile to your face
And sometimes tears to your eyes
But the most important thing Life can bring you is good friends
And a strong family to
Help you get back up
When life gets you down

my princess is growing up !

Do you know how much you mean to me?
As you grow into what you will be.
You came from within, from just beneath my heart
it's there you'll always be though your own life will now start.
You're growing so fast it sends me awhirl,
With misty eyes I ask, Where's my little girl?
I know sometimes to you I seem harsh and so unfair,
But one day you will see, I taught you well because I care.
The next few years will so quickly fly,
With laughter and joy, mixed with a few tears to cry.
As you begin your growth to womanhood, this fact you must know,
You'll always be my source of pride, no matter where you go.
You must stand up tall and proud, within you feel no fear,
For all you dreams and goals, sit before you very near.
With god's love in your heart and the world by its tail,
You'll always be my winner, and victory will prevail.
For you this poem was written, with help from above,
To tell you in a rhythm of your Mother's heartfelt Love!

Thanks For My Child !!

My Daughter, My Pride & Joy. You were brought in this world for a very special reason. The reason no one will ever understand. When you came into this world,you made my life so much better. Because you were sent from a very special man. I thank God each and everyday. For sending you here safe and not harmed. Because I would have been lost. If it wasn't for you, my beautiful daughter, my special charm. I hold you in my arms everyday, just thanking you for being here. You helped me straighten up my actl. And also helped me realize God will always be there. So thank you, my beautiful baby girl. Thank you oh so much for being in my world.

This Song is for my daughter !!

                   

What iam Feeling !!

I'm going through a hard time.
I throw things around.
Just to calm me down.

I thought one day everything was going to be okay.
But I'm still waiting for that day.

I'm getting judged everyday .

It's just not fair.
I try my hardest.
But no one thinks it's my hardest.
I just wanna give up.
But I can't as I need to show them up.

There is no point being angry at every one.
When you are just going to be outdone.
I start to cry.
And I know it's time for me to squeeze by.

It's time for me to get on with life.
But it feels like I have be stabbed with a knife.
I don't know how I can go on.
When I look up.
I see a shooting star and I wish.
But it always ends up in a swish.

I thought you said it was going to be easy.
But I guess you were wrong.
Listen to your heart.
And you might find the right part.
Why am I breaking apart?
All at the heart.

I don't wanna be torn.
Why can't I just be re -born.
So I can start from the start again.
And then I might lose some of the pain.
Then I might have a better chance.
And I will have a better stance.

I had a dream.
But then I realized that it was to upstream.
I got out of touch with the ones who gave me my wings to fly.
And I began to cry.

I forgot so easy about what really matters.
Now everything is a bit of a splatter.
I feel like I'm upside down.
And I just frown.

I hope I'm dreaming cause I don't like this feeling.
Cause it's very unappealing.
I don't know how to get out of this.
I wish it just wouldn't exist.

Everything I do, is making me more confused
And now I feel like I'm just getting used.
I finally get happy.
And then something comes on my mind and I'm unhappy.

Life Is hard and always will be.
but I guess I just have to harden up.

Looks for Valentines Day !!

Things you will need for Eyes: MAC Soft Ochre Paint Pot (neutral beige base), (opalescent white-pink), MAC Pink Opal PigmentMAC Seedy Pearl Eyeshadow (pinky-white), MAC Stars ‘n Rockets Eyeshadow (fuchsia-purple), MAC Fig. 1 Eyeshadow (eggplant), MAC Passionate Eyeshadow (medium-deep pink), MAC Penultimate Eyeliner (black), Urban Decay Lust 24/7 Liner (purple), Chanel Exceptionnel Mascara (black)

Start by applying Soft Ochre paint pot as your eyeshadow base all over the lid with the 249. Put one or two drops of water-based mixing medium (or water) on your 239, and then apply Pink Opal pigment on the lid, going just above the crease. Using the 239, apply Seedy Pearl eyeshadow on the lower lid. Next, apply Stars ‘n Rockets eyeshadow on the outer third of the eyelid and lightly blend with crease. Darken the outer third of the lid with Passionate eyeshadow with the 239, gently brushing it into the lower crease. Next, define the crease by applying Fig. 1 eyeshadow with the 226. Lightly tap and brush Seedy Pearl eyeshadow directly above the crease to soften. To finish the eyeshadow look, sweep Seedy Pearl eyeshadow as a highlighter on the brow bone. Bring everything together by applying Lust Liner on the lower lash line and Penultimate eyeliner on the upper lash line, and then sweeping lashes with Exceptionnel mascara.

Things you will need for Lips: MAC Show Orchid Lipstick (PRO) (fuchsia-purple), MAC Luminary Lustreglass (opalescent) / MAC Saint Germain Lipstick (cool-toned pink-purple), MAC Luminary Lustreglass (opalescent)

For lips, apply Show Orchid lipstick first, and then layer Luminary lustreglass for a bolder lip look. For a paler lip look, try Saint Germain lipstick as a base, and then top with Luminary lustreglass.

Valentine’s Day LOOK !

Eyes:

 NARS Smudgeproof Eyeshadow Base (neutral eyeshadow base), MAC Defiance Eyeshadow (pale frosted pink), MAC Paradise Island Eyeshadow (petal pink), MAC Star Studded Eyeshadow (plummed pink), MAC Real Drama Eyeshadow (burgundy brown), Burberry Trench Eyeshadow, Urban Decay Perversion 24/7 Liner (black), MAC Victorious Opulash Mascara (purple)

Start by applying Smudgeproof as your eyeshadow base all over the eye area with the 249. Using the 239, apply Paradise Island eyeshadow on the inner half of the lower lid. Lightly blend Star Studded eyeshadow onto the outer third of the lid and crease with the 222. Apply Defiance eyeshadow on the inner tear duct and crease with the 239. Blend Trench eyeshadow with the crease shade and highlight the brow bone. Bring everything together by applying Perversion on the lower lash line. Finish by sweeping lashes with Victorious Opulash mascara.

For lips, apply Spitfire lipstick first, then layer Wonder Woman lipglass for a complementing lip

A Warrior's Heart (Movies)

In shock and denial over his Marine father's death in battle, star Lacrosse player Conor Sullivan, always a maverick and a hothead, starts acting out in self-destructive ways that have his mom, Claire, at her wit's end. But arduous training in a wilderness Lacrosse camp under the tutelage of his dad's old combat buddy, Sgt. Major Duke Wayne, opens Conor's eyes to the true meaning of maturity, sportsmanship and manhood...

 THOUGHTS

Kellan Lutz's ab-tastic body is about the only thing shown to its best advantage in "A Warrior's Heart," a ho-hum drama whose many moving parts feel decidedly recycled.

Lutz plays Conor Sullivan, a cocky, inexplicably hotheaded California high school lacrosse star, who must move east when his career-soldier father again uproots the family. But Conor's bullish ways on  and off  his tony new school's lacrosse field intensify when his dad's redeployment to Iraq has tragic consequences.

When his father dies while serving in Iraq, Conor comes undone, brawling, alienating his teammates and distressing his mother. Worst of all, Conor is imperiling his burgeoning romance with the coach’s daughter, Brooklyn ,

It falls to Conor’s father’s military buddy Duke Wayne, to intervene. He takes Conor to a kind of Outward Bound wilderness camp, where he reveals the tribal origins of lacrosse and teaches him the Iroquois belief in a creation divinity.

Pink Candy Look !

Hey beauties, Valentine’s day is right around the corner. Many people will be looking for the latest fragrance to wear or that perfect outfit to wear out with their love ones. Most makeupnistas out there will be on the hunt for a hot look to accessorize with their fabulous outfits chosen. Well, for you all I decided to start a series of Valentine’s day inspired looks from dramatic to to soft and sweet. To kick off the series is a fun bright hot pink look for those of you that love bright eyes.

Products Used:

Smashbox photo finish lid primer
NYX Jumbo shadow pencil: Milk

Coastal Scents 42 Color Double Stack Shimmer Shadow & Blushand Coastal Scents  88 Color Makeup Palette

All Pinks and Matte pinks used
MAC Fluidline: Blacktrack

Valentine's Day Makeup Look

Eyes:

Too Faced Shadow Insurance

Make Up Atelier Rose Bleute Eyeshadow(T092) all over the lid

Artdeco Eyeshadow No.569 in crease, it's a dark aubergine colour

Artdeco Eyeshadow No.95 applied above the dark colour

Make Up Atelier White Orange Eyeshadow(061) on the brow bone

A touch of black eyeshadow in the outer corner of the eye

Black eyeliner on the upper and lower lash lines extending them out to create those wings

White Eyeliner on the waterline

L'Oreal Volumissime x 5 Carbon Black

Lips:A rosy beige lipliner
Sephora Lipstick No.579

Eyeshadows and blush that I used

Holiday Lights Nail Art

Holiday Lights Nail Art – Lights are everywhere during the holiday season and they can be on your nail too with just few simple steps. Choose a base color, anything that you want will do. The get a striper brush to make horizontal lines across the nail from one side to the other with a black nail polish, this should look like a string. For the light bulbs, you will need different colors that you want and make dots on the lines.

I Support Jonah Mowry !

just recently i was on youtube and i came across a very touching and heart breaking video..

Please Watch this, it’s very touching. Bullying has to come to and end, seriously. It’s affected (still affecting) so many lives, in extreme cases to the point where teenagers put an end to their own misery by committing suicide. 

 its a about a boy named jonah mowry who was 13yrs old at the time of the video and he is 14yrs now, anyway he talks about how he got bullied an tryed to commit suicide , this is his story plz watch and support jonah mowry,

plz watch Give your undivided attention to this brave human boy & let it affect you...


(from me to you jonah)>TO Jonah, we don't know each other, but I want you to know I will pray that God gives you the strength you need to make it through every day. You seem to be so strong already, and I give you props for not giving up on life.
this world is full of insensitive and hateful people, keep ur closest friends for as long as possible, just remember everything happens for a reason and u WILL become very strong as the years go on, you have all of my support!!! <3