Inspiration

I hate that thing that happens right before you fall asleep. Every mistake you’ve ever made, every word you wish you said, every moment that made you cry rushes through your head, and all you can do about it is cringe and pretend it all never happened.

You know that feeling when you’re just waiting, waiting to get home into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day, that feeling of both relief and desperation? Nothing is wrong, but nothing is right either, and you’re tired, tired of everything, tired of nothing, and you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay, but no one’s going to be there, and you know you have to be strong for yourself because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting, tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else, tired of being strong, and for once, you just want it to be easy, to be simple, to be helped, to be saved, but you know you won’t be, but you’re still hoping and you’re still wishing and you’re still staying strong and fighting with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

      keep on fighting. Stay Strong.

My Polka Dot Nails

My 7 yr old daughter was bored so she said mommy can i paint your nails.. i said sure why not and this is the out come, i cant believe she does good work, it came out pretty good and iam not saying that cause she is my daughter but she has some talent...like Mother like Daughter iam sooo proud.

Lonely !

“I have all these feelings - these weird feelings, and I’ve had this burning desire to express them. But I can’t. I just can’t. And these feelings - they’re trapped and they’re like stuck in my heart.. And I just feel so lonely.”

Do you know why people hate to admit they are lonely? It’s because when you do, everyone thinks that something is wrong with you. They think “I have people in my life, why don’t you?” But the strange thing is, you can have people in your life and still be alone.

Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it’s caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don’t want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying “I don’t want to exist” isn’t saying “I want to go die”. It’s saying “I wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel”. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. And if you don’t know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

i’m telling you, there’s nothing wrong with being lonely sometimes, it’s okay…you’ll be alright.

Letting Go !

I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know were better letting go. It’s like were scard to lose what we don’t even really have. Some of us say we’d rather have that something than absolutely nothing, but the truth is, to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.

You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you’re attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It’s never been about what you want; it’s always everyone’s needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you’re okay with that, because they’re in your life and that’s all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you’ll still be there for him. Because that’s you, that’s who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it’s so hard for you to let go.

I get the whole “He’s the only guy i’ve ever really been in love with” part. It’s hard to let go, hard to move on to someone else and think you’ll never find anyone with such characteristics or chemistry like you two had, but I promise you, once you let go and move on, you’ll find out that, deep down, the only feelings you have for him might be just the fact that you’ll always love him. You may not want him back, you might just be scared to move on without him.
Nobody wants to hear this but sometimes the person you want the most, is the person you are best without.

THE BEST THING !

I know I’m right where I belong
But sometimes when I’m not that strong…
I Wish I’d done a little bit more.

… I’m not completely sure of what i want with my life actually, and I still feel that emptiness sometimes but what I know now is that , this life right now is what i want, this is what I decided to be, this life that I’m living right now, the person that I am, the place where I live, the people I am with, the job I have and everything that I achieved and total of all that is happening in my life right now…this is it! this I what I want with my life. I want to accept it as it is. there maybe something more that I desire or need but i will deal with it everyday, and work for it. i was blinded to look too much about what i want with my life, without realizing that I have so much more to be thankful for, that my life is the life that I want to be. And right now whatever comes my way I am okay with it:)

“There’s always ups and downs. Not everything is going to go as planned. Not everything is going to work out the way you want it to. Not everything will go along perfectly. But how you overcome that determines how strong you are. Life hits you hard, but you have to knock it down. In order to do that, you have to stand strong.”

If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

be strong, i know you can. i believe in you.