"I cannot move forward if i continue to hold on to what’s behind me. It’s time to let go so that I will have both hands open to grab a hold of the future." To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow. It’s about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain. Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. Letting go is growing up. To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

“If you feel the need to confront others who have talked bad about you that shows that you value their opinion of you. Take them off the pedal stool and know they’re not worthy of your thoughts, actions or words.” "It`s not your job to like me – it`s mine." ;)

Have you ever ?

Have you ever been in this place?

the place where full of pain
sorrow
loneliness
and emptiness.
a place that is
dark, 
cold,
and lonely.
a place where you hide yourself
in times that you feel like no one cares
in times that you’ve feel like rejected
in time that you feel hopeless
in times when you feel so hurt
in times when you feel so alone and lonely.
You come to this place
to hide
to suffer
to dig deeper and buried yourself just to let the pain away.

Have you ever been in this place?
a place that you can put your wall around you
and hide.
a place to blame yourself and hate it
until it hurts more.
a place where you hide your fears
your dark self.

Have you ever been in this place?
a place like a dark hole that gets bigger 
every time you’ve been in this darkest time
bigger that you eaten you alive.
a place where life is useless.
a place where love is not true.
a place where hate ad bitterness hug you tight enough to let go.

have you ever been in this place?
a place that is called sorrow.
a place called emptiness.
a place called hatred.
a place called loneliness.
a place called “yourself” inside you.
that you keep and hide.

How long do you want to stay in that place?
how long do you want to suffer?
how long do you want to bear the pain?
how long do want it?

I know its hard.
I understand.
I know it, 
I’ve been there too.
And
I still coming back.
And still
struggling to
go out.

I know you can.

xoxo bibi

At War With Myself !!

“Accept Defeat and move on. Yes it hurts. Yes, you lost something, or somebody. Yes, your hopes are broken down and maybe so is the heart. Accept it. Close the battle and move on. There is this very simple thing which many people are just blindly ignoring: you can’t have a new victory until you close your current battle (by accepting defeat, if that’s what just happened).”

 

Sometimes God doesn't give you or take away what you think you want not because you don’t deserve it but because you deserve more and He has something better in mind for you. Let go, it is going to be okay.

SILENTLY

 Sorrow, Frustration...
Revenge
builds within me.
They try to rip me from my happiness.
My eyes are red everyday,
I think about what happened in the
PAST
and what is happening NOW everyday.
They say:
"the eyes are windows to your soul."
My soul is clouded with fog.
This fog is my revenge.
I silently wait for the
Sorrow and Frustration...
I silently wait for the
Revenge of my day to come.

Have Hope, Be Hopeful !!

I will never ever lose hope. I refuse to. No matter the odds, no matter what happens, it’s still my choice, my decision, my power, to hold onto the faith in what I believe to be true. That’s the one thing that can never be taken from me unless I allow it because I believe that sometimes the impossible is possible.

 I know life can be so hard. It can beat you down, it can spit in your face, it can do just about anything, and yet you can’t do a thing to prevent it. But I guarantee that one day you will smile again. You will wake up in the morning, and not have to fight the urge to cry anymore. Yes, it can take a while.. weeks, months, maybe even years. But you will get there, I promise you that.

Be Thankful On Days You Shouldn't

 

be thankful on days you shouldn't

i wish i could grab some of you,
pull you to the
side

whisper in your
fucking ears

be thankful on the days
you shouldn’t

because it’s not the
same on
days
you can

the days you cry for no reason at all,
the nights you
drink that all away,
the moments you try to hide
the minutes you try to slide in-between
the never again

anyone can laugh at something funny,
or cry at something sad

but we aren’t two dimensional,
we’re bones and meat
for reason

to break
to bruise
to feel alive.

Letting Go !

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;

It means I can't do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off...

It's the realization that I can't control another...

To let go is not to enable,

but to allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness,

which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try and change or blame another,

I can only change myself.

To let go is not to care for, but to care about.

To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To let go is not to judge,

but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,

but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.

To let go is not to be protective,

It is to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny, but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,

but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,

but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.

To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,

but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To let go is not to regret the past,

but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more

start something beautiful !

Take life one day at a time…

it’s not how fast we move or how long we live, it’s how we cherish every moment.

Today is going to be wonderful, so SMILE :)

Inspiration

I hate that thing that happens right before you fall asleep. Every mistake you’ve ever made, every word you wish you said, every moment that made you cry rushes through your head, and all you can do about it is cringe and pretend it all never happened.

You know that feeling when you’re just waiting, waiting to get home into your room, close the door, fall into bed, and just let everything out that you kept in all day, that feeling of both relief and desperation? Nothing is wrong, but nothing is right either, and you’re tired, tired of everything, tired of nothing, and you just want someone to be there and tell you it’s okay, but no one’s going to be there, and you know you have to be strong for yourself because no one can fix you. But you’re tired of waiting, tired of having to be the one to fix yourself and everyone else, tired of being strong, and for once, you just want it to be easy, to be simple, to be helped, to be saved, but you know you won’t be, but you’re still hoping and you’re still wishing and you’re still staying strong and fighting with tears in your eyes. You’re fighting.

      keep on fighting. Stay Strong.

My Polka Dot Nails

My 7 yr old daughter was bored so she said mommy can i paint your nails.. i said sure why not and this is the out come, i cant believe she does good work, it came out pretty good and iam not saying that cause she is my daughter but she has some talent...like Mother like Daughter iam sooo proud.

Lonely !

“I have all these feelings - these weird feelings, and I’ve had this burning desire to express them. But I can’t. I just can’t. And these feelings - they’re trapped and they’re like stuck in my heart.. And I just feel so lonely.”

Do you know why people hate to admit they are lonely? It’s because when you do, everyone thinks that something is wrong with you. They think “I have people in my life, why don’t you?” But the strange thing is, you can have people in your life and still be alone.

Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it’s caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don’t want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying “I don’t want to exist” isn’t saying “I want to go die”. It’s saying “I wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel”. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that. And if you don’t know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does.

i’m telling you, there’s nothing wrong with being lonely sometimes, it’s okay…you’ll be alright.

Letting Go !

I don’t know why we all hang on to something we know were better letting go. It’s like were scard to lose what we don’t even really have. Some of us say we’d rather have that something than absolutely nothing, but the truth is, to have it halfway is harder than not having it at all.

You know what your problem is? You get attached, fast. And once you’re attached to someone, you do everything you can to please them and make them happy. It’s never been about what you want; it’s always everyone’s needs before your own. You give out too many chances to people, who quite frankly, do not deserve them. They take advantage of you, and you become a pushover. But you’re okay with that, because they’re in your life and that’s all you ever really wanted. And even if they screw you over, you’ll still be there for him. Because that’s you, that’s who you are. Once you get attached to someone, they capture your heart and they always have a place there. And that is why it’s so hard for you to let go.

I get the whole “He’s the only guy i’ve ever really been in love with” part. It’s hard to let go, hard to move on to someone else and think you’ll never find anyone with such characteristics or chemistry like you two had, but I promise you, once you let go and move on, you’ll find out that, deep down, the only feelings you have for him might be just the fact that you’ll always love him. You may not want him back, you might just be scared to move on without him.
Nobody wants to hear this but sometimes the person you want the most, is the person you are best without.