Have you ever ?

Have you ever been in this place?

the place where full of pain
sorrow
loneliness
and emptiness.
a place that is
dark, 
cold,
and lonely.
a place where you hide yourself
in times that you feel like no one cares
in times that you’ve feel like rejected
in time that you feel hopeless
in times when you feel so hurt
in times when you feel so alone and lonely.
You come to this place
to hide
to suffer
to dig deeper and buried yourself just to let the pain away.

Have you ever been in this place?
a place that you can put your wall around you
and hide.
a place to blame yourself and hate it
until it hurts more.
a place where you hide your fears
your dark self.

Have you ever been in this place?
a place like a dark hole that gets bigger 
every time you’ve been in this darkest time
bigger that you eaten you alive.
a place where life is useless.
a place where love is not true.
a place where hate ad bitterness hug you tight enough to let go.

have you ever been in this place?
a place that is called sorrow.
a place called emptiness.
a place called hatred.
a place called loneliness.
a place called “yourself” inside you.
that you keep and hide.

How long do you want to stay in that place?
how long do you want to suffer?
how long do you want to bear the pain?
how long do want it?

I know its hard.
I understand.
I know it, 
I’ve been there too.
And
I still coming back.
And still
struggling to
go out.

I know you can.

xoxo bibi

At War With Myself !!

“Accept Defeat and move on. Yes it hurts. Yes, you lost something, or somebody. Yes, your hopes are broken down and maybe so is the heart. Accept it. Close the battle and move on. There is this very simple thing which many people are just blindly ignoring: you can’t have a new victory until you close your current battle (by accepting defeat, if that’s what just happened).”

 

Sometimes God doesn't give you or take away what you think you want not because you don’t deserve it but because you deserve more and He has something better in mind for you. Let go, it is going to be okay.